before i get into this, let me just let you know that i am complaining. and, i really don’t want to hear how lucky i am to have a job, because eff you.
i am feeling very stifled in my current job situation..i am standing still in this place and anyone who knows me, even a little, knows that I am not the type to stand still. i am always wanting more, never satisfied with mediocre and always looking to meet the next challenge. i am a teacher. and no matter how many years i get under my belt, i will still be just a teacher. that bothers the hell out of me. where i currently am in the world there is not a real opportunity for upward mobility and i do not think i can reach my full potential there, or maybe not anywhere doing this. i am not being challenged at all and i have no mentors or people i look up to at my job. my salary is a joke and the work is endless.
i don’t do well in situations like this. if my position won’t change, i’m not being challenged, and i’m enjoying it, what am i there for? i thought i could suck it up for the students, my kids, but its the third week of school and i’m already worn out. already tired of lesson plans, already over the meetings and this year.
i need something new and appropriate for the way i like to live my life. something that allows me to build my future, use my talents, and provide a sense of fulfillment.
“She loves her coconut oil, shea butter, black soap, olive oil, natural hair, saggy clothes, long dresses, hair wraps, twist outs, lemon water, green tea, grapes, sunflowers, friends, family, and future.
What’s a label? She doesn’t have one”—
if you ever feel bad about yourself, just remember this one time in my english class, we were writing horror stories and one of the girls wrote “it was friday the 13th, the night before halloween” for her opening sentence